I could talk about long work hours and body pains, but I'm going to.
I'm the big mouth that posts "No If's - No Excuses - No Bullshit," yet I've gained about 15 pounds of chub since Oct.
I can run intelligent sessions all day and help everyone get where they're trying to go, while bouncing back and forth between under eating to over eating, drinking to cleansing, training every day to missing 10 straight... what does it add up to?
To me, an irresponsible, out of control, idiot.
If I observed as a bystander, I'd say "Ya, he knows he's shit but he can't do it for himself, so who cares?"
On a level, I know I'm hard on myself. But on the flip side, I have to be.
So here's the deal. I have until the end of June to lose 50 lbs, or I'll quit as a personal trainer.
As I write that, that's sad, because I shouldn't be in a position to even have 50 lbs to lose, but I am and I do.
How will I do this?
I'll only be reserving "x" hours for training clients. I wont be cutting anyone back or altering their programs, but I also wont be recruiting or adding classes to the schedule. I'll need time for myself, something I'm not very good at scheduling. I've learned this year that I have a pretty silly workaholic mind working and that needs to stop. Again, the irony of this entire post is this, I need to start doing the things I tell my clients to do "Make time for yourself."
I'm 37 and still in a position to make some excellent changes. I'm very confident in my genetics and work ethic so again, at 37, I know I still have time to turn a corner and finish strong.
Follow my own programs:
This is about me, training myself as my own client. I'm putting my money where my mouth is. First up... Taking myself through the Power Program I ran last year. I'm extremely confident in the layout and design and I know it'll prove big results early... smart results. I might be a little out of control in some levels of life, but if there's one thing I know, its program design and implementation of these programs.
I have to be smart with myself. I have to literally treat myself like a client in every way. The trainer voice in my head needs to be present 24/7.
I'm going to print out the Power Program schedule and follow it to a T as if I've never seen it before and I'm a rookie. (and then when I smash this goal, count on another power program launching this summer).
Heal the injuries:
I said I wouldn't rest on these but it's a pretty legit issue and only writing about it because it'; be a hurdle to deal with. Without being able to squat, dead lift or run, it's an issue. I've been nursing a hip/back issue for a long, long time. Years. It's effected my foot and my cardio pretty substantially. I feel I have a plan to heal well, but I also don't have X-ray glasses so I don't know exactly how fast or slow or efficient it'll be. Getting out of a car really hurts and there are times where I cant stand up straight so again, fingers crossed for my inversion table. So far, so good. I've been on it pretty consistently before bed for about a month and it's helped with sleep and easing the pressure in my back.
I'm confident, but the pressures on. I will quit if this doesn't happen, that's why I'm writing this. I want you to know where my goals rest and why. There's nothing more I enjoy (other than family things) than training you in the gym and running those classes. I put a lot of energy and thought and heart into every session and every class I run. I feel it's given me a purpose... not meeting this goal will end it for me... and that will hurt, but this is serious for me and is my absolute #1 goal as of right now. (I just re-read that last section and got emotional... I'm kind of a bastard about sticking to my word, for better or worse, even if it hurts me.)
So sorry Joey's, sorry excellent little Chinese restaurant in the square and F you Paninis.. this is good bye.
No alcohol. No Redbull. No candy. No cheat meals. No excuses. No bullshit. No days off.
I'll be logging this journey along with everything else in this blog.
Funny... As I wrote this, I flashback to high school awards assembly where my coach asked all the parents in attendance to "Not let him in your house unless his homework is done." So now, I'm not leaving the gym until my own session (my homework) is done. So if you see me, feel free to heckle me (but it better be funny or motivational). Bother me the way I'd bother you. I want it and need it... "it," meaning help.